07/12/2011 - 1:00 am
assalamualaikum readers :) yes i know i should go to sleep now but unfortunetly i can't . i'm here like sucks thinking of him :( imisshim ♥ i wanna chatting with him more , more and more ! but i can't . he offline too early without saying anything to me . 2 days ago , i had some misunderstood with me friends . you know why ? it's because of him . my friends said that i must break up with him . i can't be together with him . my friends said he not a kind boy . he's a playboy , a cheater and bla bla bla . but when i was chatting with him , he said yes he was a playboy and a cheater before this . Ya Allah , at that time i just felt like dying . but then he said that was old stories . he's not like that anymore . he ask me to believe him . but how i want to believe him if my friends said bad things about him ? seriously i don't know who is wrong who is right . so much sweet word he gave to me . and so much painful words i read at their status . you know what ? it's only 1 days i've been in relay with him nahh i got this problem . then , how i will have my own happiness ? i know my friends saying this for my own goods as they don't want to seing me heart broken , crying all the days and kept thinking about that but at least can them give me some space for me to feel my own happiness ? i don't ask too much , i just wanna have some space . that's all . i'm not like you all , so hot untill too many want in relay with you . i'm an ordinary girl , , i'm not pretty like you but at least i can be so thankful because Allah still give me all this unexpectable thinker . seriously , i feel guilty with my friends , i feel guilty with him . i'm in the middle condition . what i supposed to do now ? when i ask for the broke up , he don't want . he said why i just hearing one part stories ? why not two part ? i know i can't hundred percent keep believed my friends words as they do not know much about him and i also can't hundred percent keep believed on him as i also do not know much about him . but at least , give me some space for me to think about it . you know how long i don't have boyfriend right ? you know how long i had been dissapointed right ? and you know how difficult for me to recover myself back right ? so as your bestfriends , why not if you give me some positive advices for me ? why not you give me some positive guides ? not all this negative stuff . this is not what i want friends , and you also love ♥ if i keep thinking all your feeling then who will think about my feeling ? i don't think so you can recover myself back if i dissapointed again . i'm the one who need to face all this . not you friends and not you love ♥ i know i should be say thanks to you friends because tell me this unbelievable news than i never knew about it and yes i really really appriciate for that . dear friends , i'm not angry with you but it's just i need some time to get me recover myself back because i'd already in relay with him . please pray our happiness , thank you . dear love ♥ , i hope we can have a long lasting relation and keep loyal , honest with each other . i will try my best to love you and keep believed on you . but one thing you should know , once you hurt my heart again forever i won't forget it . okay ? thank you ♥
# i'm so so sorry my dear friends and my dear love ♥ , i can't care about your feelings much because there's no one care about my feeling . my complicated feelings :'( you know something ? when i type all this sentence , automatically my tears down , yes ! i'm crying . you don't know because you never think what the effect i will get about this . seriously i'm too sad and i don't know what is my wrong untill i had to face all this challenges :'( thank you ♥
p/s : this is officially written by me and i'm not using translation words : NURUL NABILA ♥