13/12/2011 - 23:10 pmassalamualaikum :) hari nih hati bella sakit sangat sangat ! sedih kecewa semua ada lah . package . okay like usual bella bukak lappy then bukak broadband then sign in facebook twitter and so on . so when bella sign in facebook tiba-2 bella rasa macam asdfghjkl nak mencarut jeh ! nampak muka dia and gf dia rasa sakit sangat hati nih , yes i know , bella tak sepatutnya ada perasaan macam tuh sebab dia bukan lagi bf bella but the truth is i miss him ! i miss want to see his laugh but now ? there's no more . he's someone else . he's not mine anymore . seriously i want him back ! imma like desperate girl ? oh you can say whatsoever you wanna say but right here i just want him back ! i miss the old one him , i miss when he start to text with me , i miss when he start to call me and i miss everything about him ! Ya Allah , how can you help me to get him back ? my friends and my cousins said he's only "budak kampung" and he's nothing to me . but what can i do , i don't care who is he as long as he will be mine back . and now he's got his new love . his new girlfriend . oh yes ! i'm jelly babe ! and i don't know why my hand is so gatal pergi tekan "add to friend" between him and his gf . oh i'm doing like that just because of wanna see their comment , their walling . is that i'm too stupid ? yes i admit about it . i don't know how i can became like this . became too silly , became too desperate , became too hoping with something that i can never get and bla bla bla . seriously i don't know why . Ya Allah , how best i am if he can know that i miss him ? how best i am if he come back to me ? but yes like i already know he won't come back to me . he won't do that . it's just me who can't accept the fact and still keep hoping and asking that he will come back to me . you know what ? when i see their comments , i'm feel like how best i am if i'm the one who is comment with him . how best i am if i'm the one who he loves , how best i am if i'm the one that playing futsall with him everyday and how best i am if he say the words "iloveyou" to me . again , i still keep hoping with him . seriously if i can , i don't want to go back to my hometown because when i go back to there for very sure i'll see him . for very sure i'll meet him when i ride a motorcycle . at that time only God know's how sad i am . when i miss him immediately i hold my handphones and see his photo's together listen to my favourite songs "Wish You Were Here" Ya Allah , please try to help me forget about him . i don't want to think about him anymore . let past is past . please help me . i'm trying my best harder to forget him . aminn , thank you ♥
# dear girl , you're so lucky to have him as your boyfriend not like me so yeah be the best for him because i know that you're pretty and kind more than me . love him the best you can :')
# dear boy , i'm so sorry broo . it's not my mean to ignore you . i can't be perfect to you . i can't be like what you want . thanks for giving your love to me before even now you already had the new one . i appriciate that . again , thanks broo ♥